sharon.lh

the title means... i'm always.

okay. so i'm currently reading this book called '7 habits of highly effective teenager'. Reading only till the part one. and it set me thinking about some things.

so i told abi all that i felt. i'm seriously surprised that she's not angry or feeling disappointed at me. i mean... i have this paradigm that she's close with her and that day when i did the shameless thing, i thought she was hiding it away from me. and so, i kept finding evidence to prove my paradigm is correct. when i find out that that day is she is the one who ask abi out, i'm... relieved but not fully convinced. another question kept appearing in my head, and that is why didnt she tell me? comes in another paradigm, i cant bear to lose her. to be frank, she's the person that impacted one my life the most. and thus, my possessive monster comes out. i want to know everyday of what she's doing and how's she's feeling. if she dont reply my sms for a long time, my imagination runs wild and my mind will be full of it. but then, another paradigm of mine, RESPECT. if i want to keep this deep bond we had for 2 years and counting, i have to respect her privacy. but then (another paradigm), dont best friends tell each other everything? and thus, i'm confused. even tho i told her everything, those negative paradigms starts to changed. maybe i should relax a bit. i hope my only good paradigm will overcome the rest. i still love her as my bestest friend tho. and i will do everything and anything to let it stay like that forever. [hearts hearts hearts]

it's not that i'm lesbian, you know. haha. and abi, i'm sorry.

omg. this china women called and asked me about my handphone and stuff. i told her my name is motoria li. stupid women. haha! then i hung up. :)

okay. should go do my work to stop thinking about it.
i suddenly hate last minute. so rush-y.
tmr guides with the kids.
it's good. i like it!
i just HATE guides meetings.

update!

this looks like the boy abi and i saw on the train. he waved bye to us and abi missed it. she cried so badly on the train.

yes. it's kevjumba from youtube! he's cute, aint he?
yuri gets the front. YAY!
but taetaetaetaetaetaetaetaeyeonnnnieeeee! why way behind?!?!?!?
you and sunny are the shorties. (no offence, i'm the same height as them.)
so why not front? kimtaeyeonieeeeee!
the gorgeous prize have to go to sexica. that's why her name's gorjess.
hyo's hair improved.
yuri is still as hot as ever.
sunny and seohyun are getting the same hair AGAIN.
sooyoung looks pretty with the short style.
fany just looks a bit weird.
yoona is still rocking the cm look. love her fashion in cm.