sharon.lh

TIRED.

of guides and my holidays and waiting.

went to sengkang swimming with sab today.
shall post about it next time.
i need to shower, pack, sleep.
tmr guides,
friday guides,
next friday guides,
next next friday and saturday guides.
SCREW YOUR BALLS.

and it hurts if i had thought correctly.
i cant wait for monday.
to ask for forgiveness and show the true side of me.

i want to kill myself. goodbye.

GOOD LA.
EVERYBODY IS GOING OVERSEAS.
EVERYBODY IS GOING SHOPPING.
EVERYBODY IS WATCHING MOVIE.
EVERYBODY HAS MONEY TO DO THOSE THINGS.
I WANT BUY THINGS ALSO HAVE TO WAIT FOR FAMILY'S MONEY.
I WANT WATCH MOVIE ALSO HAVE TO THINK TWICE.
I WANT GO OVERSEAS AND TOUR ALSO DONT DARE EVEN THINK.
I WANT TO ACHIEVE SILVER BADGE ALSO NEED TO TRY HARDER THAN OTHERS.
I WANT TO ACHIEVE SOMETHING THAT I'M PROUD OF ALSO BUAY SAI.
I WANT BE TRUE TO ABI ALSO HAVE TO WAIT SO LONG.
I WANT GO DIE ALSO CANNOT.
THEN WHAT YOU WANT ME TO DO SIA.
LOUSY SHIT.
GO STUFF YOUR OWN ASS LA.
EAT YOUR BLOODY 'PLUM BLOSSOM' LA.
WANT MESS WITH ME.
I SO TIRED LIAO LEH.
GIVE ME A BREAK, CAN?!
I DONT WANT KIT KAT LA.
DONT JOKE WITH ME.
I WANT BREAKKKKKKKKKKKK.
SIGH.
LIFE'S LIKE THAT.
SO SAD HOR.
CUZ PEOPLE SAY,
SELF-PITY IS THE WORST YOU CAN GET.
THUS, I TRY VERY HARD NOT TO PITY MYSELF.
NO MATTER HOW MUCH I TRY,
I'M BACK TO MY OLD PATHETIC SELF.
TIRED LA.
TIRED LA.
TIRED LA.
GO DIE LA.
READ WHAT READ.
SHOOT YOU THEN YOU KNOW AH.
I GOT ASK YOU READ MEH.
KNNBCCB.
&%#@$^%.
TIRED.
ENOUGH.

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update: 1106009; 7.50AM
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i woke up by my pa and ma's shouting. crazy hor. i cant be bothered alr. cant believe, i spent ytd breaking down cuz it was so painful and tiring to see my family getting affected cuz we dont have enough money. the look on their face is just... tiring. and yet, life still have to move on. you know why my pa angry, cuz he kena scolded in work. he always like that. then he will throw that frasturation at my ma, then she will rah at me or just randomly at anyone.

what can i do with everything. it's so tiring alr.
no matter how much i hate everything, there's nothing i can do.
the above in caps are all in anger and frasturation.
and now, i'm too tired to feel anything.
i have guides in 2 hours time.

i'm going crazy.
i'm seriously is.
i really hope abi knows that i need her now.
but i still have to deal all this myself.
so, even if anybody knows, nobody can do anything.
so, isnt it better to not let everyone know what i'm going thru.
so, BYEEEEEEEEE.
anyway, it will blow over soon. (i hope.)
so whatever.

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update: 110609; 04:02pm
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okay. i think i'm fine now.
but i'm still tired of everything. -.-
and i miss abi! T.T
i suddenly got a lot thing to do.
but i miss abi! T.T
i suddenly loss my apetite in food.
weird, huh.
i'm a food lover, you know.